4/17

eck. i dont want to come home. Im supposed to be back in 8 days and Im starting to get really depressed about it. The thought of having to end all this is truly disheartening. Stockholm has been the best place on Earth. It’s seriously, without a doubt the only place that i haven’t had a single complaint about. Not a single one. It’s ridiculously clean, lots to do, the women are GORGEOUS, the people friendly, extremely safe, no homeless people whatsoever…seriously guys. Come here. I promise that you wont regret it.

I still havent seen Barcelona, Paris, OR London - the three places that everybody is expected to go see on a trek through Europe. Ive got 8 days before I need to be back home and 6 days before I need to be back in Ireland. I need more time. I need more money. All this charging on my credit card is really going to come back and haunt me sometime in the not-too-distant future and I get so incredibly depressed when I think of having to go back, get a hundred jobs, and work forever to pay off all this. Furthermore, the only realistic place I know that I would be able to even dream of getting ahead financially is back in Reno…blegh. Not what I want to do in the least bit. I miss California. I miss Portland. I miss Seattle. I really want to see Chicago, Boston, and New York. I want to see Michigan and Ohio. I hate feeling like this.

I want to stay here. I want to go to the American embassy and ask them for an extension on my passport, get a job at a pub or a hostel and stay here. Maybe even teach English to Swedish kids. I’ve heard that there is a big industry for that sort of thing in Europe. I met a girl in Amsterdam who is getting free room and board at the Flying Pig Hostel in exchange for cleaning rooms - I wonder what I’d need to do to get that.