A lack of time

I realize what a petty complaint this is, but it’s honestly something that plagues my mind: I CAN’T BE EVERYWHERE AT ONCE. I don’t feel I lived in Portland nearly long enough because I miss it like crazy. A lot more so than Seattle, which is saying something. But here I am back at my parents house in rural Nevada playing around on the Google Earth daydreaming of the life that I want to have. I want to live in New York City. I want to live in Boston. I want to live in Toronto, Pittsburgh, Cleveland, Alaska, France, The Netherlands, New Zealand, and seriously…the list goes on. I’m only planning on living in Ireland for around six months. What happens when I end up loving it there and become even more torn between living arrangements? How am I supposed to find a way to live in all of these places and experience all of the things that I want while somehow managing to make money/prepare myself for the future.

Sure there’s more to life than money, but when I’m forty years old with children needing money for college, how can I explain to them that I lived a happy life full of adventure instead of saving for their futures? Forget about opening all of those businesses that I’ve had the idea for. It seems so selfish to me and I’m torn between all of this. I wish I had all the answers. I truly do.